So you put your life on hold for months in order to open scary doors and windows in your brain that are closed for a reason. Your family hates you. Your friends fear you. People who have graduate degrees who never had to take the GRE laugh at you. Your hair is just slightly green.
Now what?
Day of the test: disregard everything you read on the ETS website about what to bring to the GRE. Depending on the testing center, you get zip. Zilch. And maybe a little humiliation.
I work nights, so my sleep schedule is a little different from everyone else’s anyway. Despite the admonitions in the GRE study books stating not to do any studying the day before, I went over my copious notes. Slope of a line, anyone? Area of a triangle? No, no, that’s the perimeter! My notes were filled with cute little tips like: Don’t be stupid, you fool! In fact, I had even illustrated them. A little court jester told me the ten different things to keep in mind when comparing two quantities. He was not a nice court jester at all. He was hateful.
I also took another timed practice test in the book. The bad thing about the online practice test is that, although it does help you get familiar with it, it Doesn’t Give You The Answers. And if you don’t know what you got wrong, how are you ever going to learn?
I do wish I had had a little more time to study for the verbal section, considering that’s what I want to get a degree in, but sadly, the verbal studying had to suffer because there was no way I was flunking out on math. (There must be something wrong with me.) Over the few months of prep, I basically read the instructions, did a practice essay that can’t be graded, and read through the mini-dictionary. Day before the test, all I studied was math, though.
Then I took a nap and stayed up all night re-watching the Harry Potter series so my brain could rest and I wouldn’t oversleep my test or be groggy.
As suggested on the ETS site, I ate a little for breakfast, but not too much that I’d get sick from nerves. But. Oh no! I drank a cup of hot chocolate. Then I packed myself a drink and a snack and an extra sweater and some pens and a watch without a calculator and a good luck charm (a sarcastic sheep).
Now, if you haven’t had to take a standardized test in forever and a half (can’t you just see how much studying I did for that math test???), you might be unpleasantly surprised when they hand you a contract and force you to write a full paragraph–in cursive.
Wait, what? Cursive? Like, what I haven’t used since third grade, that cursive?
And I panicked. I couldn’t remember how to make a cursive I. It was the first letter in the paragraph. I had flunked the GRE because I couldn’t get through the door.
A minute later the little old lady came out to ask if I was done yet. I was still struggling to make cursive r’s. I gave her a harrumph. She went away. She came back. I said, I have to pee. She said, No.
My contract looked like a five-year-old had written it. It’s tough to remember 3rd grade when a little old lady keeps interrupting and glaring at you! She made me put all my belongings in a locker, including the snack and water the GRE website specifically told me to bring. Oh, please, little old lady, I’ve gotta pee, but what if I get thirsty???
No water. No peeing!
She took my photograph and my ID. She made me sign something so she could check my signature. My hand was shaking and cramped after the cursive exercise, and honestly, how was I going to get through a five hour test if she wouldn’t let me potty?
She finally let me go. It was still twenty minutes until my test was supposed to start, so really, she shouldn’t have given me a hard time. But she wanted me to start early.
But then we hit another snag. If I wore a sweater, I was not allowed to remove it during the test, no matter how hot I got. But they wouldn’t let me feel the closed room for the temperature. Now, I get cold. So I had brought one short-sleeved sweatshirt and a sweater. She made me go back to my locker and leave one there, including my watch, my bracelets, and my own earplugs. Then she stole my sweater and checked it on every side for crib sheets. She checked the pockets. She made me turn out my jeans pockets, including the coin one, lift my pant legs, stick my hands in my back pockets so she could Look Inside (what a creepy job you have, lady!), and then she WANDED me. Yup. This was more extensive than airport security. The only thing she didn’t do was actually frisk me.
At the break time, you have to repeat this process just to get out. To which I reply: Wait, how could I have swapped bodies with someone inside a locked test room??? This included a signature check. And then you were allowed your break–except half your break was already used just to get out of the room!
Super-sonic pee break.
Then back to the wanding, pocket-searching, signature checking little old lady. I suppose that I could have been up to no good in the bathroom. Most little girls are. You go in, you play in the sink, you splash water, you body swap with your Mensa-smart twin sister, and then you go home while she finishes your test for you.
After all of this, it didn’t matter what was on the test at all!
Halfway through the third section I started to pray that it was experimental and would not be graded. That meant that the final math section should appear easier. But it wasn’t. The third and fifth sections of the test made no sense. Now, there’s two options for this: either I did so well on the first math section that they amped up the second. Or: I soooo failed the first section that they put baby arithmetic on the next section. Baby arithmetic is my Kryptonite. I honestly have no idea if it was easy or hard math, and that just went to show me: it didn’t matter how much I studied. The final eight problems out of twenty were all exponents. So it wasn’t even very well-rounded. Say, if a student doesn’t understand exponents in trigonometry, the next question should be something like: Let’s count paper coins! But alas, it was like my random question generator got stuck.
But: I passed. Verbally, I did great. Mathematically, I don’t have to kill myself, and I also never ever ever need to learn math again unless I decide I hate myself and want to give myself a reason to die. And that’s all that really matters, right? Separating the people who commit suicide from the ones who are just plain masochistic.
night,
dawn